Fatigue and Food Choices

It's hard to function as the mom I want to be, much less make the right food choices, on two hours of sleep. Baby girl has 4 teeth poking through right now and just wanted to nurse all night for comfort. And I'm so tired I'm twitching with restless leg syndrome.

This is one of the things I look forward to about starting Medifast on Monday. The food choices have already been decided for me and they are quick and easy. That's gonna help on these tired days when I struggle more with wanting to eat high-caloric, high-fat, high-carb foods to comfort me.

I decided to take the kids to Vander Mill for donuts and cider and they each got a small pumpkin to bring home and paint. I brought my camera, hoping for a picture or two of the kids with a pumpkin or two but spent most of my time chasing after my 20 month old who was more interested in running into the parking lot than playing on the play equipment. I especially wanted a picture of my son sitting on this really cool log surrounded by pumpkins...

Doesn't this look like a perfect spot to get a picture? My son was not impressed.

Some days my son is photo happy and will humor his Momma behind the camera. It wasn't happening today. I even heard myself saying, "Of all the things I do for you and you won't sit and let me take this one picture of you!?!"

Oh boy. That is so not the Mommy I want to be. I'm so tired I could cry.


Time for some self-talk, Momma...

"Let this go. Go play with your son and respond to him and talk with him and DO NOT punish him with silence as you're apt to do. It is ok for him to not want you to take his picture."

Sigh.

I'm so grateful this day is over. It just needed to be over. And I'm grateful for my son and daughter's ease at letting the day go and forgiving me when I'm exhausted and impatient and irritable and demanding the perfect photo op.

I just need a long hot shower and early to bed.

This helps. And just makes me happy. And 0 calories! Ha!

Here's hoping for some precious greatly-needed sleep tonight.